Tuesday, February 25, 2003

Tired

Very very tired the past few days... not sure why, but there are moments when it's all I can do to keep awake. Going to try and go to sleep earlier tonight (been doing reasonably well lately, in bed by midnight, up a 7am-ish). I don't think I managed to stay awake on Sunday for more then 3 hours at a time before taking a 30-45 minute cat nap. The EffexorXR withdrawal effects is about 90% gone, although when I'm really tired I can sometimes feel that tiger prowling around in the back corners. And the side-effects from taking the EffexorXR all those months has mostly cleared up (falling asleep twitches are exteremely mild in comparison to what they used to be, almost normal twitches except not as localized as they're supposed to be).

The lack of energy is the most daunting of the physical that I'm dealing with - it makes tackling the others much harder. Especially when I don't have the energy that I need at a certain point in time in order to make something come to pass. Not sure how lucid I'll be within a bout 15 min since I've just taken a sleeping pill (first one in a week).

Heard back from an old friend and the news was pretty much as expected, Magic passed away last fall but Oliver and Pica are doing fine still. Not sure where that contact will lead, but neutral ground is prescribed. Ended up sending back a response e-mail while I'm full-doped with the sleeping medicince... being hopefully a little bit clearer about what went on, yes mistakes were made, but nothing serious. Heck, compared to the majority of the couples out there, we had a pretty darn good relationship for a very long time. At least, until I started getting sicker and sicker from the disease that was hunting me.

Of course, the biggest change since now and then is that I'm letting my hair grow long (probably pony-tail length) and the beard grow out (needs trimmed up at the moment while the underside fills in), there's a possibility that I could walk right past her in a crowded room and she'd miss me LOL.

posted by Wuphon's at 8:39 PM